Confession: I try too hard.
Other Confession: I’m a wee bit taken aback that I began a blog post with “Confession”. But, I did. So…
Growing up in the rural area of southwest Missouri, I spent a lot of summers watching the evening begin with a few stars speckled throughout the sky like a rainy day connect-the-dot game.
As the cadence of crickets crescendoed–along with ravenous mosquitos–the sparkling dots in the sky thickened. With hardly any lights to drown them out, layer after layer, appeared.
those glitter-drops of angelic magic beckoned to me–telling me secrets of peace and healing, promising me that everything, indeed, would someday work out to my highest good.
Often, I would lay in that empty lot next to my childhood home and ask the lighting bugs if they, too, were stars–tiny floating fairies or angels, coming to earth the promenade in the humid Midwestern night.
Those opalescent, brilliant hints of mystery were the source of healing, laughter, and positivity.
So, when I say I try too hard, I suppose it’s because sometimes–I won’t lie…most of the time I believe I don’t do enough. And it’s those times when I start to overdo it. I pay so much attention to others and trying to help them, that I neglect myself.
Essentially, I lose the balance between lending a hand and taking time to work on myself.
So what was the answer?
One night in meditation, I heard exactly what I needed to hear: The stars don’t try to be. They simply are.
In other words, stars don’t necessarily go out of their way. For eons, they have been beacons for healing, guidance, wisdom, and knowledge. They have inspired iconic paintings and caused words to stream like the embrace of eternal lovers.
And they have never, ever tried.
What I have learned from this on my journey is to simply shine from where I am. stop trying and just be. Just know that I am enough exactly the way I am–hell, who am I kidding? I am more than enough.
I am so much more than enough I am just a super-sparkly firework bowl of unicorn Lucky Charms, and that is spectacular!
Stop trying, just be.
After all, we are human beings…
Peace and Love Until Next Time.